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Lets slow down
and start going backwards.

PICNIC! =))))

My sec school friends are so sweeeet. Yiling and Jean my bestest friends from 1 million years ago till now cooked for the picnic. Hongkit my brother from 1 million years ago actually bothered being bothered about the summer theme. He was panicking all day about the theme. HAH! And Yunting, my off and on but still very good friend from 1 million years ago bought my present and the cakes too despite being so tired from waking up at 530am everyday for work.

And ya, I've always wanted a picnic/outdoor party for my birthday so its their part of trying to make it come true for me. Me sooo happy and I enjoyed myself alot. Actually, I bet all of them enjoyed themselves cause when we are all together, we laugh like crazy and this time, we camwhored like crazy too.

Jean, our clique expanded awesomely. =DDDD

I really really like hanging out with them.

Atas dinner at Triple Three at Mandrian Hotel. TMD, I didnt know it was so upz, if I know I wear gown there la. I was in my nua work attire, blouse and jeans. Wasted the chance to wear my dresses out. But ya, the food was super awesome. The salmon and oysters were wicked. Damn fresh and damn big/thick. Super shiok. The selection of cakes was great too. And they have the ex jap beef thing, erh wagyu beef? Something like that.

So upz, we saw Lee Nan Xing, Chen Li Ping and her husband, Chen Tai Ming (something like that).

My dad was like "This is the best buffet ever". The bill was crazy. Once in a blueblue moon.

Oppsy, Dear, this is a bad photo. HAHA!

http://www.mtv.com/videos/katy-perry/527631/california-gurls.jhtml#id=1641622

I must admit California Girls by Katy Perry has been stuck in my head all week. And I must admit, I just watched the MTV. Rachael too. We both imagined the MTV to be sunny, bikini girls, nice beach scene. But HELL NO.

The MTV is spoiling it. Totally. WTH MAN. Candy land?? EEW.

I was bored at work. It is supposed to be an aeroplane. I cut out 2 holes at the base for my legs, cut the flaps to look like wings, stick on front headlights. Didnt work very well. But at least it brought alot of laughter for a boring Friday afternoon.

Soon to be another year older. Actually when its your birthday, its like you are just 1 day older than the day before your birthday. So why do people celebrate birthdays? We should celebrate the process, the every day pains, the every day joys, and not celebrate the destination of reaching the ending point of the year. Easier said than done, but since its a tradition to celebrate birthdays, wth right, just busk in the happiness of people being nice to you, and just enjoy receiving presents. HA!

Y Reading people took up my 1st birthday celebration this year. Its not even my birthday yet. =/ But its a pity Tiying cannot make it. Me miss Ah Wang sho muchx. (Tiying if you are reading this, gan dong right?) Its a pity Bitch Yan An cannot make it too. But its still nice, meeting them up. Especially Ah Khar. Its like a million years since I last met her. =) Its nice to know that friendships made while doing CIP in JC stay for so long. So long, and deep enough to organise birthday celebrations now and then.

Okay who's next in line to celebrate my birthday! HAHHAH! Its my birthday so I can be as thick skin as I want.

Mythbusters:

1. Val hates surprises.
Truth: Its not that I hate surprises la. Its just that I tend to get nervous and unsure when I know a surprise is coming up. And I dont know how to react when people surprise me. Really. Like I'm not the "Omg thank you sooo much" type of person. I probably go "FUCK! YOU PIECE OF SHIT!" Yeah, you might be offended but I actually meant "omg thank you so much". Surprises tend to be in a group as well. And I'm not a very group being, I like small gatherings instead.

2. Val doesnt like birthday songs.
Truth: I dont hate them la. But I cnt stand the fact of a group of ppl singing for me in my face, looking at me. I dont know how to react also! I will be very embarrassed. And I dont like the "make a wish!" cause I dont believe in birthday wishes. And I dont like the snap snap snap photos of me blowing out the candles thing.

3. Val prefers to choose her presents.
Truth: quite true la. My preference for stuff is very specific. Its either you know what I like, or you dont. Alot of people think they do, but most often than not, they dont la. =/ Its a risky thing and so I dont want people to waste money on things I dont like. Of course, if you know I totally trust your taste, then by all means buy me something I've never mentioned before. And I dont know how to react if I receive a present I dont like. So dont ever ask me to open the present in front of you. Even if I like it, I also dont know how to react. HAHHA!

So the ultimate truth: its the problem of awkward me not knowing how to react when things happen. HAHA.

SURPRISE SURPRISE! Happy 22nd Birthday Ning! It sure does feel like a 21st birthday surprise. HA. Never too old to surprise someone or to be surprised eh!

It all started with Zhiyong telling me about the plan of popping at her place at 12am. Then it spread and expanded and added alot more creative juices. Awesome mannz. The balloon idea was the bomb. Super funny. We floated her balloon outside her window and she really got a shock. Seriously man, balloon outside window. WIN.

Then there it was downstairs the word NING with a heart shape made of sparklers. And a hell lot of smoke la. HAHH! Im horrid with surprises, I was so nervous. HAHHA!

Glad she enjoyed herself and felt enough love to kick start her awesome birthday. =))

But I do feel a little old these few days. Cant keep late nights, cant go out till late, have to sleep all the time. Reached home at 2+ last night and I just zonked out. Now at work, I'm practically dying.

I realised I stop missing Samuel form Mon- Fri.

The most well slept sleepover. HAHHA!

Yiling and I popped by Jean's place yesterday for a sleepover. And its really a sleep-over. We did nothing but chat and sleep. HA. But it was a short but enjoyable period of time. Talking girly stuff before we sleep just like how we always do during our sleepovers. =)

Its a pity Jean and I had to go to work today, or else I bet we will have even more fun. Okay maybe not, we will probably sleep even more.

Lao le.

I want to go to these places!

Little Bali- http://www.littlebali.com/
PS Cafe- http://www.pscafe.sg/
District 10- http://district10.com.sg/
Kinch- http://www.kichn.com/

Soon ah. Soon.

Love.givesmehope.com
Givesmehope.com

Its such a cute site with so many short writeups on how love gave people hope. And it has this super cute icon on the top that says "Gives Me Hope, like FML but for Optimists."

I really love reading such things. I'm a motivational self help book sort of person. I read Chicken Soup for the Soul during my growing up years. Recently, I still bug Samuel to buy me the new Chicken Soup book. Ha. I will borrow every single Chicken Soup from my school library to read during my secondary school days. Its the only type of book that I can read all day without stopping to do anything else. Even if I had to eat, I will chiong eat, den head back to the book. Then when I'm reaching the end of the book, I will be damn depressed.

But anyway, I've been very loved recently cause my Birthday is coming! =)

My friends who are busy asking each other when are they free so that they can meet me for my birthday. Their LGMH. This one really. I'm super touched you know. Its really not easy to coordinate a group of people to meet up but they are making efforts to do so.

Samuel who refuses to tell me what is going to happen next weekend, his LGMH. Its like he will keep his mouth really shut and not tell me anything. I asked him about dresscode and he said "anything also can" so I'm like "home clothes?" and he just laughed and said "Also can, up to you!" Its really impossible to get anything out from him now.


My siblings who sponsored my shopping loots today. My brother is in Korea now but my sister was like "dont care, you just buy, I will sms korkor to pay". Their LGMH.


My parents who asked when I'm free for a high crass dinner to celebrate my bday. My dad really emphasized 'high class'. Hahah. Their LGMH.


I receive alot of love, and I hope that I'm giving people love as well. =) I think I'm bringing quite alot of joy to the people at work. Its like when my friend is sad she will ask me to talk to her the whole day, and I did until I had to leave for a while. And when I came back, she was like "Val, I cried". And people are like asking me to promise to come back to work after my internship ends. The people at work are really nice to me. =)

Im crazy. I decided I want to make gummy sweets today and I did! Awfully tasting ones. HAHHA! Who cares, as long as they look good. Poor poor Samuel. HAHAHHAH!

Edit: Before Samuel came to pick me up from work, I let my friends taste my gummy sweets. I would really like to video down their reactions. Damn cute. HAHA. Their whole faces just cringed and turned sour. Then we started playing with the gummies since they look just like those rubber toys, we stuck them up on the refrigerator. It was so funny. Then when Samuel came, I told them "Samuel is going to try my gummy sweets!" and they went "Oh noooo!! Dont poison him!!" HAHAH, their reactions are still in my head cause its sooo amusing.

I realised I have more commitments that I thought I have for the next half of the year. Opportunities tend to hit me all at one go. Really, sometimes yes you should reject if its overwhelming, but after you reject, you never know when is the next time you receive a golden opportunity right at your doorstep.

Okay this is what I have in mind for the next half of the year, spilling over to 2011. Yes, I'm sick, plans reach 2011 alr. HAHAH!

1. Sep YCC- I'm not holding any specific role but I want to make sure its okay. Its my last time guiding them and protecting it from harm, so I must do a good job before I pass it down wholeheartedly.

2. CARE Corner's year end camp- I dont know the exact name for it. HA. Eileen! I need to meet you soon, I need to know more!! I will be Camp Commandant. Strange as it sounds, I lack alot of experience in working with teens and I may be quite awkward in front of teens. Its like I cant be childish but I cant be too matured with them either. Its the identity seeking stage of their lives and I want to be guidance and a role model to them. And leading a committee of people I completely dont know. Challenge, but I feel courageous enough to do it. =P

3. IVAE Youth Conference 2011- I actually went to the briefing months ago and left the briefing feeling sian. I wanted to join but then the briefing did not inspire me and I felt no community service involvement at all. Dropped the idea totally but then, I was (personally HAHA!) asked to join a few days ago. I feel like the ultimate big shot, put on a pedestal. I decided to join the org comm for this conference as I was promised that community service is a big part of this conference and there will be youth delegates from all over the place that I will get to meet. I will be working with people I usually dont work with, and also working with people I completely dont know again. Challenge, but I must take it.

Good luck to me and my adventures ahead. I feel the sun shining on me recently. Things are going great and I want things to stay this way. But too much of a good thing might not mean anything after a while and without the bad, you wont appreciate the good. So, I shall not feel too good about anything. Take things step by step, one at a time, make new friends, go through shit with new people, learn and experience along the way. Things will be great.

I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS SAMUEL. D:

I like this fine line of support that we give each other. Its not exactly fine but not exactly a high sense of reliance as well. We dont interfere into each other's lives, but we are a big part of each other's lives as well. Its like I know that hes always there to support me and to make me giggle and whine every night. And I know he knows I'm there to disturb him, nag at him and force him not to fall asleep every night too.

I like knowing that theres someone who will listen to me when the day ends.

Its quite amazing to observe how friendships grow. From strangers to friends, sounds like just 1 step but it actually takes alot to nurture a friendship. It was nice meeting friends at yesterday's Lim Kim San's Book Launch. Yes, if you read the papers thats the event and yes, I went. WHOOHOO.

Went to do sai gang, in suits. We didnt mingle much with the 20+ tables of big shots, rich CEOs, tai tais, and also the President and his wife. It was a pity I wasnt in the mood to mingle and do small talk yesterday. Its like people introduce me to people and after that I just find an excuse to excuse myself from the conversation. Horrible. But I still had fun mingling with the people I know or just met.

I found my strength- I make new friends pretty quickly. I was like laughing and talking cock with my new usher partners very quickly. And like at my workplace whenever theres new staff coming, everyone will ask me to talk to her first to break the ice. But of course, I'm pretty mood swingish, depends all on my mood la.

Of all the conversations last night, I appreciated the time spent talking to Yihan the most. I've not met him for a very long time and hes still the same old supportive calm him. =D

I forsee new adventures ahead.

REUNION in 2 days!

I am emoing now. D:
I miss Samuel so much.
Its like I really hate NS. Why must NS seperate us?

I guess 1 picture concludes all at YCC.

LOVE.

These are not all, more have found love by doing community service. HA. Looking for a partner? Do more voluntary work, gain good karma.

I've been good all week. Besides going for FOC meeting on Mon and meeting the girls on Tues, I've been heading home straight after work. I've been working hard on Samuel's present(s).

But having not done much handicraft or girly girly artwork recently, I've become pretty careless and rough and untidy. And I get annoyed with myself very easily. Like I know that I can do better but at that moment I just cant. Argh, and I made a careless mistake just now. Terrrrrible.

Samuel promised to like everything. So, I shall not be so irritated with my folly.

Y Camp tomorrrrrrow! I must admit I feel a little weird not being involved. It has become my quarter monthly routine but I have to miss this Y Camp cause of internship and also cause it clashes with Samuel's birthday. Boyfriend's birthday has greater priority. =) But yaaa, it pains me most not to be able to attend campfire night, cause its my favourite. Oh well, better than nothing, I'm heading down for water activities tomorrow. =D I cant wait to see all the familiar faces- volunteers and beneficiaries. Cant wait to see those smiles, those laughter, those shagged out faces, those cheers and screams and noise. I want to cheer too!! OMG, YES I MUST CHEER STH TOMORROW.

I'm excited for the weekend. This weekend will be amazing.

And we realised we've been meeting up for 4 days in a row. =) Everything with Fries on Friday, Swensens on Saturday, Exercise on Sunday, and we had breakfast before he sent me to work today. =)

I love long book outs like this, really love, like I really miss the times when we spent more than just 1 day per week together. Its the feeling of "Yeah I will see him tomorrow" that makes me feel 'I dont know what' but its a good feeling.

I'm starting to blame NS all over again.

I still love Samuel alot. I still want to share everything with him, I want to tell him everything that is happening in my life, in my head. I want to see him everyday. I still want to feel close to him. I dont want this distance between us, literally and not.

After seeing him day after day for 4 days, I'm missing him like crazy now, just like how I missed him when he was in BMT, and when every Sunday was emo day. Now, I'm emo. I miss Samuel. D:

The weekend will come soon and we will be happy again.

The BESTEST brownie in the whole wide world. Banana Nut Brownie. I MADE IT FROM SCRATCH. Damn I'm awesome. Its like super nice like super duper nice. =))))))