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Lets slow down
and start going backwards.

This is a joke. =/

An elderly couple had dinner at another couple's house and after eating, the wives left the table and went into the kitchen.

The two elderly gentlemen were talking, and one said, "Last night we went out to a new restaurant, and it was really great. I really recommend it."

The other man said, "What''s the name of the restaurant?"

The first man knits his brow in obvious concentration and finally says to his companion, "Ah, what is the name of that red flower you give to someone you love?"

His friend replies, "A Carnation?"

"No. No. The other one," the man says.

His friend offers another suggestion, "The Poppy?"

"No," growls the man, "You know the one that is red and has thorns."

His friend says, "Do you mean a rose?"

"Yes, yes that''s it," the first man says.

He then turns toward the kitchen and yells, "Rose, what''s the name of that restaurant we went to last night?

oh well, I think the joke is pretty funny. Very unexpected. I'm bored. But I'm excited to go back to Zhonghua tomorrow!!! I can see YiChing!! SCREAMS.

Since I'm so bored, let me tell everyone my 10 resolutions this year.
1. Be promoted to JC2 or else I'll go to RP and be with Samuel.
2. Gain more weight (this is tough)
3. Get over the fact that Samuel is not in the same school as me.
4. Be best friends with my classmates, Ah Khar, TiYing, Joanne, Jo.....
5. Do more shopping!!
6. Keep in touch with 4e2rians + Zhonghuarians.
7. Help YuTing organise 4e2 end-of-yr chalet!!! (yes people!! 4e2rians, give me your views on this. Nov or Dec? Where?)
8. Stop quarrelling with Samuel over small matters.
9. Be pro in a subject.
10. Be more confident.
11. Stop being so lazy.
12. Be nicer to my family.
13. Join my family on a holiday.
14. Be HAPPY!

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR MAKING A DIFFERENCE ON MY BIRTHDAY! =DD

Samuel is right once again. He told me there will be people who will remember my birthday, but I refused to believe him then. =P

Thank you to my 5 classmates for the present. =) We must go out after Math paper on Tues!
Thank you Serene. =)
Thank you Hen, Delin, Jessica, YiLing, Hhk, YunTing and Timothy, who likes playing stupid tricks on me. =/

"how would a bag sound for a bday present?"
I forgot what I said and he replied..
"wrong. a bag wont make any sound."

Lastly, THANK YOU SAMUEL. He brought a cake to me after school, on my birthday. =D My family seems to like the cake a lot. Heheee..

Geography was a KILLER yesterday. I'm prepared to fail it damn badly. If I can get 35% for it I'm quite satisfied already. Its Literature tomorrow. I dont feel like studyin for it. Its not that my lit is good, its quite bad actually. I miss getting 16-18/25 for my lit essays. I'm getting 13-15/25 nowadays. Its painful. BUT, I still REFUSE to read Mrs Teo's notes. Heh. =D

Okay, I shall read Wilfred Owen's works now.

'i have been tagged'" by timo..
but i'm too lazy.

i have a fish burger in my hand now. =)

Thank you to the people who wished me happy birthday. =)
many unexpected ones.

Thank You..
Samuel, who refuses to let me read my msges until he wished me happy birthday so that he can be first.
TiYing, who called me "our favourite monkey" =/
Jean, who wanted to be 1st to wish me.
Khar Loo, who wished me despite studying econs.
Dory and Joanne, who wished me at almost the same time.
Yip, who hopes that I grow so fat that I burst.
SiewHoon, who tried so hard to rmb to msg me.
YiChing, who msged my sister instead. BUT I HAVE A PRESENT! =)
YuFeng, who wished me happy birthday on Friendster.

HURRAY TO ALL.

those I thought would rmb, didnt.
those I thought wouldnt rmb, did.

EH, my birthday isnt over yet. It is today!!
I'm hoping for Hong Kit to msg me. Its weird 'cause since sec2 he has been the one who wants to be the 1st to wish me happy birthday every year.
I'm hoping for Andrew to msg me. But its ok 'cause I forgot his birthday too. HA. =/

Gp and chinese: done. =D

I think so far still alright. (I hope) Its econs paper tomorrow and I'm still slacking here. I'm struggling with myself. I dont know if I should sleep or force myself to read Econs. But somehow, I chose to blog instead. Good luck to me and the rest for the rest of the Mid Years.

I met Li Jian today at the busstop opp. Bishan MRT. He looks the same. I still want to be at SA instead. Ha!

After the chinese paper today, Ah Khar and I saw a cat sitting in the middle of this open air area in school. A boy walked pass and said to his friend, "wah! the cat dropped from the sky!" I though it was very funny so I started laughing. Till now, I still think its hilarious. =/

I feel like messaging him but I dont know what to say. I guess I've not recovered. There's no one to blame but myself. I'm the one that caused all my own unhappiness. Sounds retarded but its true. I know that its not his fault 'cause he didnt mean it but I just cannot bring myself to chat happily with him again. Suddenly, I feel like I have only been an entertainer from the start. I've been making a fool out of myself. I've been putting in a lot in this relationship and I'm tired of it. I want to step back and wait for things to fall back in place again. I dont want to be the one who will piece back everything nicely, I want it done for me. I want to let myself be angry for more than one night. I dont want to care so much. I want you to pamper me and give in to me. I want you to make me feel like I have the world. I want you to flood my inbox with messages because I didnt reply. I want you to call me because you are worried. Let me be a spoilt brat just for once. But why wont you just give me more love.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! (tomorrow)

Tomorrow is the day. GP paper and the mid year papers begin! May it end real soon. I dont care already. *winks to TiYing* Heh.

I went to RP yesterday to find Samuel. I felt damn lost at first. Everyone knew where to go, what to do, except me. And I felt like everyone was looking at me. Paranoid. I found my way to the canteen and I sat there to read my GP notes. NYJC tau sa bao is nicer than RP's. Heh. But I actually like the campus despite the lack of colours in it. (All the walls and furniture are grey or white.) Oh No. I feel like going studyin at RP now. =/

Wasnt feeling very well for the last few days. No idea why. Constant stomach aches and the puke-ish feeling. ARGH. I told Samuel that I rather fall sick and enter the exam hall. Then if I dont score well, I have an excuse. Heh. But he refused to agree. =/

YiChing is coming back to spore soon!! SCREAMMMS. But I can only find time for her after my exams. Hope I can meet up with her. =D

I dread the start of school again. Its not like when I was in Zhonghua, I looked forward to go to school after the holidays. Those were the days. I dont want to go to NYJC. I DREAD SCHOOL. I'm an unhappy student. GRRR. I want to be with 4E2 again! I want to go to the same school as Samuel again! AH.

But, I look forward to seeing my classmates though. =D

This blog entry is especially for my Dear YiChing. =)

16June2006:

I set off early to meet YunTing. She had to rent a vcd for her project, so she rent some chinese show from the shop near my block. After that, we took bus 74 to her school, Ngee Ann Poly, as she need to hand in her assignment. As I explored the school, I kinda regret going to a JC. Even though poly life may be tough as well, at least the students have a life there. JC study life is oh-so-dull. Anyway, back to the main topic, YunTing took me on a tour around the campus, the scary corridor which we didnt dare to walk in, the smelliest toilet of the school, the place where they sell nice sandwiches and 40cents coke, and many many many more. After which, we went to Marina to meet the rest of 4e2...

We were late but so were a few others. Met Audrey, Nicole, Hazel, Alex, Jerald, YuTing, Siew Hoon, Hen, Sharon at the station. =D They were all still the same. Hazel seemed more gentle though. Heh. Jerald is EXACTLY the same. HAHA. Stupid father.

We waited for the bus but it took such a long time and when it finally arrived, it was too packed and we couldnt board it. SO......Jerald and my bright idea: LETS WALK, cause we were wearing shoes! =/ (what a lame reason) Despite the many complaints, we still decided to walk there. I loved the journey there. We were talking and crapping. Jerald and YunTing were arguing. Alex was telling us how good the movie -Cars- is, YuTing teaching me Econs, SiewHoon was amazed at how I looked like I understood YuTing. I tried my best to visualise the graphs in my head but in vain. Heh. =P We were all chatting like dont know what. The walk there seemed really short actually. =D Lets walk again one day!

We reached the steamboat place, all sweaty. Found the rest there. Mrs Ngiam, LuLu, Joseph, HongKit, MaoYing, Belinda, Sally, Delin, HekMing and ??? HEH! ( Hope I didnt miss out anyone). They started eating already. So we got our food and started steamboat-ing and bbq-ing. the oil splattered everywhere. It was pain when the oil kena your hand. =/

Jerald was damn *^((*^%. He sat beside me. He took a big plate of cooked food from the buffet table. Mrs Ngiam was like, "here is steamboat leh...take cooked food for what?" Haha. Jerald then regretted. And so..every mouthful he ate, he'll put some on my plate. =/ He'll go " hey the wanton very nice", then put it on my plate. (YiChing, I know you can imagine this..)

I ate tons of chicken. I love the black pepper chicken. =D Mrs Ngiam was appalled by the amount I ate, she kept touching my stomach which was not bloated at all. Alan and Ying Xian came. After everyone stopped eating, YunTing and I still went to get MORE food. Ha. I stopped eating reluctantly as everyone seemed to be waiting. =/

Then after 2 group shots, we left the steamboat place. I was eating my icecream when they wanted to take pic. So, we posed there very long and I was worried for my melting icecream. We took a bus back to the MRT station. The bus was DAMN packed. HongKit was damn disgusting. He suddenly turned to me and say "xiang ma?" Then I was thinking what was he referring, Then he looked at the man behind me, who had his hand raised up, explosing his hairy armpit. WAH........ Oh ya, HongKit became much more muscular. B-cup, as how he described. SERIOUS.

As the bus reached and the bus driver opened the front door of the bus, Joseph, who was standing at the very front of the bus, got squashed behind the door and behind the EZlink machine. It was hilarious. Even the bus driver and other passengers were laughing. So poor Joseph had to be squashed there until all the passengers alighted and the bus driver closed and opened the door again. Heh. We were all laughing like WOAH. Hahaha.

Edward was at the station waiting for us. Its so sweet that he came just to see us. =) On the train, I was sitting with Alex, YuTing, YunTing, Joseph, Jerald, Edward, Mrs Ngiam. YuTing was talking about his new bag, that looked like a lil man, all the time. Mrs Ngiam asked about his bag and we all went "OH NONO, DONT ASK!! AHH.." And YuTing started talking about it all over again about the NS men who missed the stop just to ask YuTing where he bought his bag.....Heh. YunTing was taking photos with us using her phone. We were victims of her zi-lianing. Hahaha.

So the day ended. I miss 4e2rians again! OH NO.......
I LOVE 4E2!!

YiChing, this is for you. As my exams are approaching, the day that you will return is nearing. =D hehee..

I wonder who's going later. =) Its so heartwarming to see 4e2rians going later without even know who will be there. ha.

I've been trying very hard to study. But I end up just flipping through lecture notes for the sake of completing my revision. Nothing seemed to have entered my puny brain. 23rd june is nearing. I'm starting to give up on revision. I shall enter the examination hall like how I used to in sec school. Dont know, dont care, just get the paper over and done with. =)

I cant wait to see 4e2rians later. Hope many many will be there.

MAY IT NOT RAIN LATER.

One More Moment.

Don't take too long to say "I love you"
to the ones you love,
cause time has a habit of slipping away.

Out on a clear blue sky,
when lighting strikes on a sunny day,
just take me in and keep me from the rain.

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say...

That I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
With you.

Turn away to say goodbye,
with each and every word that passes by,
like a distant memory.
And time keeps slipping away,
and time will turn to grey,
and time will be the one who holds you down.

And the words that seem so hard to say,
come out when you've gone away,
stay a little while and hear me say...

And I want you here tonight,
and I need you by my side,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
And I want you by my side,
and I need you here tonight,
for just one more moment,
for just one more moment,
With you.

Sometimes time will treat you bad,
Before you even know what's wrong,
and in the end it hits you hard,
please tell me you'll be strong

Ronin.

If timothy sees this, he will sure go "this song again? o_O" hehehe.

I had fun yesterday. SO much fun.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMUEL! =) Wait for 2 more weeks and I'll be 17yrs old with you. Heh.

I think Samuel and I make the most ridiculous couple ever. We tend to do stupid things unknowingly.

We were waiting for bus 19 at a bustop at Changi yesterday. Then while waiting, there were many planes flying above us. (We were very near the airport, so the planes we saw were very near us.) We got so fascinated that everytime when a plane was nearing, we will start looking at it fly over us. And everytime when we were excited over the plane, bus 19 will go pass us. We missed 3 bus19's because of the planes.

So its like, Samuel will go "another plane!" and I'll go "where? where?" and we'll go "wahhhhh~" and, "HAIYA. bus 19!" and, "okay, must watch out for the next bus." But we ended up missing another bus and another.

Okay, its alright if you dont understand. But it felt damn retarded at that time. Hahaa.

I'll study today.
Now, I cant wait for 16 June like the other 4e2rians. =)

Damn. I blogged but everything disappeared.

Summary:
I am having fun.
I met Yunting yesterday.
I hope Andrew goes this Friday.
I miss 4E2.
I am dead broke.
but I still want my havaianas.
Samuel's bday is in 2 days time.
I will study today 'cause I know I must and I know there are people out there who want me to study hard. =)
Study hard people! (esp Ching, Ah Khar, TiYing, Jo, and many many many many more.)

I guess some people might appear strong and unafraid of what comes in life, but actually, deep inside, they need someone to care, someone to support them and lift their spirits up again. We will face obstacles in life and everything seem to be getting in your way, but all these will pass. Remember: we cant be sad forever.

Just like YiChing, I want to live in the past again. ZHSS. 4E2. all my friends. And actually, Art Club. I see that a lot of my exclassmates have left the past and moved on happily. Perhaps, I'm a bit slow, I've not fully let go of the past.

All of us have our own problems, theres nothing wrong about it.

To that friend in need, I'm here for you. =)

I dont feel loved.

Where is your boy tonight
I hope he is a gentleman
maybe he wont find out what I know
You were the last good thing about this part of town.

Doesnt make much sense but this song is STUCK in my head.

To YiChing, Timothy J, Jean and Javin.
I WATCHED X-MEN ALREADY!!
AHHHH. I've not recovered from all the action.

Those who havent watch it, watch it. Dont regret, dont wait for VCDs, DVDs. This is worth the ticket price. Storm was COOL and I have to agree with Javin on the "woahhh~". Thats was what he said when I asked him about Storm. Ha. I was sad when Professor X "dissolved. hahahha. My favourite. I'm glad I waited for the after-credits. It gave me hope. HOPE. Evn though it was just like 5 secs more of the show, it felt good. =D

Jean Grey looked hideous. She's not pretty anymore. She's zombified and poor Scott, took of his shades and died. He died without his shades, he couldnt even look cool when he died. SAD case. The girl named Katie was pretty and young. Angel was kinda extra, like he appeared in the movie posters but he just appeared in the show for a lil while.

Iceman is such a flirt.

Magneto is Gandulf. I realised not long ago. No wonder they looked alike. Like twins.

Professor X and Storm are the coolest. Heh. I like Storm with short hair. I like Professor X with no hair. HA. =X

Okay, I would love to watch the show again.

No wonder Jean and Javin had so big reactions when I said I was watching X men today. Heh. =D

I was so hardworking that I changed my blogskin.

I should just accept the change and move on. Nothing will remain the same for long.

Its sad to know the little time I spend with Jean and Yiling nowadays. (Despite having Jean as my classmate) Its sad to know how Hong Kit and Andrew dont seem to exist anymore. Its sad to know that this year for my birthday, theres no 4E2 to sing happy bday tunes to me. I still remember the Mitchell version, the Jerald version, the Audrey and gang's version and the class' version. Ha.

Sweet memories. Time will just pass and I must accept it. Things change for the better. But for now, I cant wait for 16 June to come. ALL 4E2rians, PLEASE GO!! =D Mrs Ngiam actually planned a gathering for us. =D

I AM FREAKKKKIIINGGG BORED.
THIS IS THE WORST HOLS EVER.

I did absolutely nothing constructive yesterday. I think I'll go through yesterday again today. I shall do totally nothing again. I'm lazy to study. Someone give me motivation!!!

Before you start blaming anyone, you should see if you did something wrong in the first place. Perhaps, things are not what they seem to be. Maybe, the problem is just YOU. Reflect on what you did and the words you used. They were just wrong. Touch your heart and search your soul...

Now, feel apologetic.

Yesterday:
School at 10am-12pm. Nothing much to talk about.

After that TiYing, Ah Khar and I went for lunch! From lunch onwards, it was all about sweating it out. HA. We were sweating, profusely. TiYing looked like she just had her bath. When Ah Khar saw me, she was like "first time I see you sweat until like that." Ha. It was really a DAMN hot day yesterday.

Upon reaching home, I had my nap and then I started studying geography. I wonder if I still remember what I studied yesterday. =/ I'm just not in the studying mood yet. How nice if I can get back the before-O-levels feeling.

Perhaps due to the hot weather, I had a super headache last night. My head was so pain that every move I take, my head will hurt even more. I watched Xmen last night on channel 5. It makes me even more tempted to rush to the theatres to watch Xmen -the last stand-. Yes, I've not watched it yet. Damn myself. I realised, Storm had long hair then.

I faced major difficulty falling asleep last night. It was so hot, and my head hurt like &*%#^@*. I couldnt toss and turn as well. So, I got up to take 2 panadols and I lay in bed till my head felt better. At that time, it was about 4am already.

Thats for yesterday, I'm alright now. But I feel like I just fought a battle last night. =/

Samuel is sick. =( Get well soon.

Right at this moment, 1:12am,...
I miss SAMUEL.
he is sleeping like a baby now. =)
I AM SAMUEL SICK. =/
Since I have nothing to do in the middle of the night, I shall write about SAMUEL.
SAMUEL is a very sweet lil boy.
SAMUEL has a very soothing voice that will make you melt.
SAMUEL tries his best to be the best to me, like how he tries to keep awake and active on the phone when I know he desperately needs sleep, like how he went through the effort to have dinner with me today, like how he tries to remember to wake me up early in the morning.
SAMUEL is damn cute, like when he told me he needs to save money today, when we both knew who is he saving for, and when he shows off how many A's he have, and when he called me frantically, afraid that I've not waken up from my afternoon nap.
SAMUEL looks very cute, especially when he laughs.
SAMUEL is MINE.
I love SAMUEL.
Hahahahhaaa..

I wonder how will he react if he reads this. heh.

I did something naughty today. =X

Went shopping with TiYing and Ah Khar after literature today. BUGIS. Actually we were there kinda early, so the shops at Bugis Street werent exactly open yet. So we walked around Bugis Junction. Oh, we first had KFC then after all the walking, we ate Roti Prata. The curry was NICE. =D I'm still thinking about it.

After the shopping, TiYing and I decided to kaypo kaypo. HAHAHA. Followed Ah Khar to Kallang. =P

I went to meet Samuel while TiYing went to meet him and Ah Khar went for church. All had seperate activities. Samuel and I went for a simple, but my favourite Lor Mee dinner. =) After walking around for a lil while, he sent me home and.. HA. =)))

I am pondering over sleep now. Thank God there's people talking to me online now. Samuel was sweet and wanted to wait for me to fall asleep, but he has school tomorrow so I let him sleep. Heh. Samuel is sweeet and nice. =)

I am sleepy, hungry, but I dont know what I should do about it.