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Lets slow down
and start going backwards.

I'm waiting for Jean's grand arrival.
She'd better hurrrrrrrrrrrrry.

Econs and geog and most importantly, LUNCH, is waiting for me.

I LOVE TODAY.

Meeting up with 4E2rians just to surprise Andrew. Ha. It was so funny la, when Andrew appeared, we shouted "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREW!" And guess what, he actually said, "No la, its Steve's Birthday, hes not here yet." (We lied that it was Steve's birthday.) SO dumb la, till that point of time, he still didnt realise that it was a surprise party for him.

I guess he was touched. He better be. The scrapbook was BEAUTIFUL. Everyone was like "I want this for my bday too!" I want it toooooo. Its soo sweet la, filled with memories of 4E2. =)))) We have loads of outings and gatherings.

After the Mac party, some went to play pool while some went to chill at coffeebean. I went with Lulu, Aud, Siewhoon and Ed. Kept teasing Lulu. Hahaha. But its good that she dont take those comments to heart. =D Aud was damn funny. Hahah. We were talking about stress in school and demoralising results and we decided that.....

WE'RE GOING TO MUG TOGETHER THIS FRIDAY!!!! =DDDD

Kiasu people exchanging school exam papers. Hahaha. We're going to push each other to study harder. but its abit tough cause our subject combi quite different. Especially mine, no science subjects at all. I guess I'm the only TOTALLY Arts person.

WE CAN DO IT. I'm so excited. Its like back to the secondary school days. =) I think we're even closer now la. So cooooooooooooool.

I cant wait for the photos. SEND THEM TO MEEEEEE. I think I took many photos today. From morning to night. =/

DEMORALISING.
I'll move on, of course. There's no other choice but to face the future with courage. I will charge forward with more determination to tackle the subjects. If I dont believe in myself, no one will and I will soon be a failure. So, I will push myself forward and do the best I can.

Right, I read that paragraph again and I still feel demoralised. I just need time off. I need a 1 week break from school again, or else I will not be able to recharge.

Ponned lessons with Jean today and went to look for slippers for her. We'll face the consequences tomorrow. I guess we were just feeling too sick of school and just had to leave. I felt oppressed in school. Things just dont go the way I want it to. Thats life. Jean bought a niceeeeeeeee pair of slippers. I must reassure her. Hahaha.

I felt stupid just now. I had my Ezlink card in my pocket but I thought it was lost. So Jean tapped out of the gate and I followed her behind. I hope the people around didnt realise and thought that I was a cheat. I found the card in my pocket upon reaching home. So DUMB. SO DAMN DUMB.

JEANNNNN! Dont stress yourself out too much k. You can overcome this setback. But first, we MUST dress up and go out sooon!!!! =DDDDDDDD

I like things now more than last year, when we were really distant. Its nice slacking around with her. It would be better if she stays in Bishan longer. Hahahah.

My life is made so much better with such nice people. Samuel is one of which. I'm so touched when he bought me 100plus and insisted on carrying my bag when I felt faint after running that day. Hahahaha. Okay Just a random thought.

I went out to meet Audrey, Ian, Yuting and Edward today! We actually watched TMNT. Hahahaha. We wanted to sneak in to watch 300 (M18 show that some of us cant watch yet.) But the timing wasnt suitable for Ian, so we watched TMNT. Aud and I were cheated la, Ian was like "Happily Ever After is a cartoon and I'm not going to pay to watch a cartoon la!" Then after watching TMNT, we realised, DAMN, its a cartoon too!!

Its quite alright. Quite funny at times. Everytime I hear Aud giggling, I feel giggly too. =X I felt that the monsters were quite erm, funny but she felt that they were scary. Hahaha. Aud's damn cute. OH, Aud looked glamerous today! Niceee~

OH YES!!! BEFORE THE SHOW, I SAW PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN- AT WORLD'S END TRAILER. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I MUST WATCH IT. I REPEAT, MUST. =DDDDDDDDD I know Jean's excited too!

After movie, we headed to The Balcony, such a small area for a flea market. Then we walked around Heeren with an aim. Heh Heh. Ian left and we went for dinner at Pastamania. Talked about school life, block tests, Alevels, and about certain things that we look forward to. =D WE ROCK.

I like this familiar feeling. The feeling of letting down our differences (our different schools) and just being 4e2rians again. Its not being yjcians, saints or nyjcians. We are 4E2 Zhonghuarians. Its like its damn cooooool la. We have so many plans in mind also. We wont quit without another proper gathering. Hahahah. I hope it'll be a success. =DDDD

I forsee fun, fun, fun and even more FUN.
I cannot stop it. I feel damn excited. AHH. I'm like screaming inside: SOOO FUN!!
But things cant be confirmed just yet. But with the power of the core group, we can do it!! HAHAHA.

Oh, I'm so excited that Jean is going to stay in Bishan for a while. =/

Yesterday was an OH-SO-BEAUTIFUL day. Samuel and I headed to Vivo to catch Mr Bean's Holiday. It was rather amusing and entertaining. I kinda admire him for being able to make the crowd laugh and make us go "Awwww.." at times. He's really a legend.

We walked along the Singapore River as well. It was really comfortable to just walk and talk and laugh about stupid things. I could laugh very unglam-ly, knowing that Samuel wouldnt mind. (I hope.) He's so cute la.

me: would you jump into the river to save someone who's drowning?
him: OF COURSE! I got Bronze leh! (He just got his swimming cert.)
me: *laughs hysterically* =DDD

We had a super filling dinner also. I didnt know why I was so damn full, perhaps it was due to the beef lunch and the teabreak desert. It feels really good to eat desert with him. It tastes extra sweeeeeet. Hahahhaa.

After dinner, we headed to the MRT station. And, as we were trying to spot Ms Ow at the place where we saw her the last time, I saw....

YOU WONT BELIEVE THIS.

I saw....

JEAN. (Ya, of all people.)

Fate brought us together. Hahahah. And that brings us to today.

Met Jean to go to the fleamarket at Gashaus. The stuff there were COOOOOOOL, despite the small, crampy area. There were good, special stuff. I would love to go there again next time. Thank you Jean for remembering the way there. Hahaha. She even lead the way for two RJC girls, who seemed to be lost.

We went to Starbucks to chill after that. It felt goooood slacking and just spending the day with a friend so close. Felt good doing stupid things like trying to suck up water with the puny straw.

After which, we got the urge for the skinny ties we saw at Clarke Quay on Thursday. So, we headed down all the way to Clarke Quay to get it. I let her have the blue and white strippy one, and I got the red one. We will exchange and share them. =) Its so nice to have someone to share similar taste. Its even more of "Eh, that is niceeee.." and "YA! I think so toooo..." Hahaha.

Jean ended up succeeding into making me buy this white long sleeve top with a black vest. I LIKE IT. I just tried it on with my tshirt and I think its damn stylo. =X

After that, Jean decided that she want that $3 top at the flea market, so we headed back to Bugis. Got it! And we were relieved. =X She then headed for Church and I went dinner with my family.

Jean even gave me a $5 top that she got. Awww.

The day was soooo fun. Reviving memories of entering the MRT train, seeing Jean walk around in heels, picking out stuff that we like, searching for good stuff, talking about Yiling (You are not forgotten!)...
WE MUST HAVE MORE OF THIS!!! =DDD

I love the days after block tests. REJOICE.

HELLO PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET! =/
Yes, block test is OVER. I am OVER the MOON. Okay, enough. Thursday after the Lit paper was spent with Jean and Yiling. I love outings like this.

Since Jean cant blog and Yiling didnt talk about the details, I shall do the job. Jean and I headed over to Yiling's house to chill, eat, use com, look through her cupboard, watch abit of tv, read magazine, basically, chill. It was nice to eat homecooked maggi mee from Yiling again. =P She forgot to add in the EGG though.

After spending some time there, we decided to head out. Initial plans of going to Art Friend was cancelled and we went to Clarke Quay instead, to visit the new mall, Central. It was potential but the layout is kinda messy. I saw stuff I like there. Skinny tie!!! AHH. I WANT A SKINNY TIE AND A LEATHER-BIG-BUCKLE-BELT!!

Its nice to shop with them as we have rather similar preferances. Jean is always eyeing on things that I eye on and vice versa. If one day if theres a competition where both have to buy the same stuff from the same shop without knowing what the other got, we will win. Hahahha.

We walked along the clubs and nice chill out places and reached Liang Court. After spending some time at Kinokunya (Spelling seems weird), we headed for dinner at Macs. Talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked. Comfort.

Headed home after that.

We are so gonna set a new trend. =)))) With our amazing talent, we will soon earn big bucks. Okay, maybe I'm the only one being so money orientated. Hahahha.

I dont get it. I JUST dont get it. Teachers should just stop giving tips that makes no sense at all. First was Econs. They started acting nice but saying stuff like "The first chapter has been tested. The second chapter also tested. So you are left with *ahem* (3rd chapter) You guys get the hint?" Bullshit. So much came out on Keynesian. Okay, chill. NEXT...

Geog teacher decided to be nice and give TIPS for the test. It didnt include anything on fluvial processes. So obviously, many wouldnt study that. But, HEY SURPRISE, you get an essay question on it. Bullshit.

What are tips and hints when they are plain bull-crap. =/

Seriously, I rather they dont give any tips and let me study everything. At least I stand a higher chance in passing than when I follow tips that I not true. My friend (better dont write her name in case this is being read by higher authorities) was right when she said "Flow Flow Flow, flow her head la. Also never come out!" Yes, so I've wasted my time reading things in the tips that didnt come out and not reading things which are not in the tips which then came out.

Fish.

Its okay, cause at least its over. I hope Lit would be manageable tomorrow 'cause I didnt study for it.

I dont want to mug anymore.

I want to...
Chill at Starbucks.
Meet 4e2 ppl.
Make stuff with Jean and Yiling.
Go YMCA with Tiying and Khar.
Slack anywhere with Samuel.

and I want to...
Buy more tshirts.
Buy a big buckle leather belt.
Buy skinny tie.
Buy trinkets at Chinatown.
Make chucky accessories.
Buy more acrylic paint.
Paint on bags and shoes.
Set up own blog shop.
Earn more money.
Rule the world (optional).

=)

But, I must mug for the time being.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhh...

I hate this feeling of I-know-what-I-feel-like-doing-but-I-cant-do-it-now.

Forgiveness doesnt get things far as the beautiful phrase taking-things-for-granted just pops back into the picture. Right smack in my face.

I must save myself from these tangles in my life. Havent you reached a point in time when all you can do is just to chant miserably to youself "I can do it. I can do it. I can do it..." Seriously, does this even work?

My life is never going to be straight and smooth flowing. Sinousity is always greater. I'm never going to get things right. My expectations are seldom fufilled.

But upon reflecting in my own quiet space, I've realised that life would not be as exciting as it is if there are no obstacles and obstructions in the way. You have to go through the bad times to appreciate the good. Even though it is tough maintaining at equilibrium, it makes me a stronger person after struggling through.

This entry doesnt make any sense. So if you're reading this line now, it means that you have wasted your precious time. You could have read another page or so of your notes.

Had dinner at Vil'age on Sunday with Yunting and Belinda. I miss them la. We must meet again soon.

Let photos do the talking. BELINDA: send me the rest of the photos!

This post is for last Saturday.

YMCA~~ I enjoy reading programmes the most, so I've been looking forward to this week of the month to head down to pasir ris again. On top of that, Jean and Yiling were joining in as well, making me even more excited. Upon reaching YMCA, I saw a familiar face: EDWARD! Then another: YUTING! I was damn happy la. It must have been fate. Ha.

Headed down to pasir ris soon and Khar and I cracked our brains to think of Ice breaker games on the bus. =/ But we didnt think of any in the end. Reached there, got seperated in groups and Khar and I begin to panic all over again. Hahahah. But the scissors, paper, stone game worked for a while. But we kept asking them to introduce themselves to store for time. I hope they didnt realise that.

Had an irritating balloon man for a while. He was lousy and irritating. Hahahah.

Then when all the volunteers were back, we started the reading programme. Then food time. Then, games again and Khar and I panic again. Hahahha. Decided to play Simon Says again. =/ Luckily, it turned out alright. =)) Must thank all the volunteers for being so cooperative. I like this group. =)

After the whole thing, Jean and I went for a haircut with Ed and Yiling. Had dinner, then headed home, feeling guilty for not mugging.

I think people are over reacting to the tremors felt in Singapore, by the Sumatra earthquake. =/

To update everyone, I've not fully recovered yet. Seriously, I dont know why. For the first time, lots of rest and water does not equate to a speedy recovery. Every morning when I wake up, I really hope that when I get out of bed, I'll feel healthy again. But for the past few days, it didnt happen. That "floating" feeling will not leave me. I feel weak and just not right. I dont like blowing my nose all the time and see green goo flowing out. The skin at my nose is tearing already. But at least I'm coughing less than yesterday. ARGH.

I FUCKING HATE THIS FUCK FEELING.

I want to stay in school and suffer with everyone else. I want to go down to YMCA with Khar and Tiying after school. I dont want to be sleeping everyday away. ARGH, fuck.

Econs test was BEST. When the question was flashed, Ty, Khar and I went: !!!!!! Multiplier theory didnt come out and the hints given were shrewed up. And so, the essay was done in the most horrendous manner. Didnt really know what I was writing and I left about 15 mins for the 2nd part. Ha. My 2nd part was more like an Art test and not an Econs one. Drew many graphs but had very little words.

Okay, may I be well tomorrow. God please bless me.

I HATE THE WORLD.
SCREW THE WORLD.

I thought that I had a peanut stuck in my throat on Wednesday, and I kept trying to cough the peanut out and started being antisocial to everyone, lagging in everything, and I wanted so much to meet someone I was comfortable with after school. After not talking to anyone all the way home, I finally opened my mouth upon reaching home and I realised that my voice changed. I croaked.

I felt extremely tired and went straight to bed, thinking that school must be really tiring. Samuel woke me up and when I talked to him, he could practically hear me. I had lost my sweet, melodious voice. I went to see the doctor, got my medicine and beamed at my MC.

Upon reaching home, I felt that since I was going to have a geog test 2 days later (Friday), I could stay at home the next day to study hard for it. I was still feeling very fit, except the throat got quite sore.

I woke up the next day feeling like hell-knows-what. I was reallly drowsy and I couldnt really talk. I headed back to sleep again shortly and I slept and slept and slept. Replied a few msges and continue sleeping. I slept until I felt cold yet warm and I knew it. I checked my temperature and I was having a rather high fever. And I continued sleeping until...

"Valerie ahhhh, Samuel is here." My Mum said.

Damn was I unprepared for this. My hair was unkempt and I hadnt bathe despite it being the evening already. I knew he was going to visit me but I didnt really know how soon. My biological clock was shrewed up.

Samuel sat by my bed and brought me water and the disgusting chinese medicine that my Mum brewed. He talked to me even though I couldnt really reply him. He massaged my head while I was half asleep. I was soaked in the smell of medicine but he acted as if I still smelt really good. =X

Soon, he had to go and couldnt stay for dinner, disappointing my sister greatly. I felt so fortunate being sick. Love is the remedy.

I went to sleep after a while and I woke up the next day, feeling better. But after a while, I felt like SH*T again. Struggled to school to get my Chinese results. I'm really proud that NY scored really well (I think the whole Spore did well.), but they didnt really have to torture me and let me watch 196 students go up on stage to get their certificates. I slept on Serene's lap.

I got a B for chinese. An A would be much nicer but a B is definitely better than a C. No feelings at all for this result. Congrats to Khar and Jean for getting their As. =)

Samuel fetched me home and I watched tv.... ate bread... watched John Tucker Must Die.. ate maggi mee and slept.

And it is SATURDAY. I missed the geog test, the Pe test, and theres Math test on Monday, and Econs test on Tues. Brilliant.