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Lets slow down
and start going backwards.

HAPPY 2009!

2008 has been a scary roller coaster ride for me. Experiencing so many new stuff, stepping out of my circle of comfort, rabbing opportunities along the way. It was great, I think I've matured. I'm beginning to feel happier with life. I learnt to accept failures and not wallow in self pity.

Lets see what happened in my 2008 life.

1. Worked in retail- selling shoes.
2. Worked at YMCA. (where I got to know Cheryl, Eric, Jon and Jason)
3. Chose SMU.
4. Survived Sem 1.
5. Helped with Y Outing- APSN.
6. Joined Uni Y Exco. (need to start work soon)
7. Joined YCC Com.
8. Samuel went to China.
9. Went to Japan.
10. Took up night lessons at YMCA. (survived throughout with Hans and Cheryl)
11. Took up driving but left in hanging in midair.
12. And most scarily, my breakdown.

Something like that. I guess in this weird transitional year, many friends stood by me. I became closer to many of them. I gained many new friends as well. Be it from SMU, or from YMCA, I appreciate all of them. Friends from YCC, staff from YMCA, Y Readings, Y Outings. I dont mind waking up early on Saturday mornings for Y progs anymore.

Thanks to BGS friends who made school fun. Esp Sabrina who will complain nonstop abt SMU with me. And pretend we love SMU tgt. More museum trips kkk!!

Thanks to Samuel as well. For always being there for me. =) Even when he was at China.

Thanks to my family for the freedom, and the fun when we head out. The free movies, chalet, shopping trips, vacation. =)

Mothers are irritating. I dont want to be an irritating one next time.

I mean like I inform my dad all the time if I will be home late and roughly what time will I be home. Its the same today. But unfortunately, my dad's phone was spoilt. And my phone was spoilt too, cause its vibration mode went bonkers. I set to silent mode but it didnt vibrate when my mum tried to msg me. So I didnt know.

So when I reached home. Congrats. One superduperultra black face to deal with. She just yaks what she feels like yakking, without thinking. Damn irrrrrritating.

She still thinks I'm twelve la. Be home by 10 rubbish.

Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging is an awesome chick flick. If you are thinking of getting a gift of me, you can get me the DVD when it comes out. Its such a cute show. =)

Damn, working again tml. But for the money, I dont mind spending 9 long hours being at the same place on a Saturday and the same goes for Sunday.

ZZZZZZZZ.

I miss my Camera.
Work was alright today. Yen Ru made time pass so much faster. =) Rotate shifts.

Samuel will be back tomorrow. Bye freedom. HAHAH! No laaaa. I miss Samuel alr. Sleeping without talking to him on the phone is quite difficult. But I think distance really makes the heart grow fonder. And a healthy distance is always good. Like a few days without each other, to do some reflection, to think about other things, to be independent.

Okay Im saying all these cause its only 3 days 2 nights. HA.

Dinner with YCC ppl tml. =) CHOCOLATE!

Dear is awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. BOO.

I've been spending too much so I will gain some wealth back tomorrow. I'm working! Ha. Its really tough for a lazy bum like me. I hope there will be more cute lil ang mo kids tomorrow, makes work alot easier.

For the sake of Samuel when he comes back, I shall blog about all that happened today.

I woke up early to Samuel's call. Then I went back to sleep for like 40mins and it was damn hard to wake up at 740am. And I didnt. Woke up late, reached YMCA late. Y Reading was fun even though it was kinda messy today. I think its been a really loooooong time since I went for Y reading. Guo Sheng hyped up the atmosphere alot today. And helped distract me from distraction(s). HAHAH.

Slacked at YMCA after Y Reading then went to Cityhall to meet Sabrinanana. Present buying, Starbucking, Watched Yes Man. =)) It was nice being with her. Nice people really exist in SMU. I cant wait for have classes with her again next next sem. Damn, still so long to go. =(

Yup, and I must apologise to Tiying and Khar. SORRY! PS you all on 22nd. I will meet you guys on 23rd k. PROMISE.

You deserve a kick in groin.
And a whole lot of goodies.

Try me.

Holidays are great. So great that I'm feeling guilty, thus I decided to buy better presents for my family this year, to make up for all the lost time. Its like friends will ask you out, but family is just left with the leftover time I have. I feel kinda bad. Hope they like the presents I bought though. THEY BETTER.

And I think I need to clean out my closet and update my clothes. When I open my closet, I get the feeling that the clothes I see are too young for me alr. BOY, I'm maturing. I seriously think I am. But to think of it, if you think you are maturing, most likely you are not. I'm not making much sense here. Blame it on America's Next Top Model. All the skinny people are scolding each other, distracting my thoughts.

Byebye Camera to Bali.
Byebye Samuel to Bali. =(

To be honest, I was reluctant to step out of my comfort zone to go for a camp. On top of that, I knew I wont be able to sleep at all due to the planes there, so I was kinda indulging in self pity. During the camp, there were times when I thought of giving up. I faced alot of problems and I didnt know how to handle them.

But after all of it, I realised, I actually enjoyed this process of learning and growing. I had fun. It wasnt just fun, it was drop dead AMAZING. It was like going to heaven and coming back still very happy.

I finally appreciated a camp. I finally learnt the true meaning behind camps.

Dirty showers, toilet with no locks, sleeping on hard wooden planks, eating on the floors, screaming my throat dry, leading a group of strangers. All these is nothing compared to the joy I brought back with me. I made new friends, bonded with many, received recognition, learnt how to cope with emergencies, motivated others, became family with the committee. Seriously, I'm starting to feel post-Y-camp depression. I was actually sad to have to break camp early.

I love the committee to bits. Love all the mass convos every night. Love all the stupid ideas of going to dinner like its prom night. Love all the gossiping and bitching. Love all the care, concern, support they give.

I'm so going for the next camp. And the next and the next. March Mini Y Camp, I'm ON.

Im now the lousiest student in SMU.
DAMN.
Feel so stupid now.

I will be away for a few days.
I will be serving a greater purpose.
I will be doing more good in my life. I will be stretching my limits to help others. Even though I hate camps, I'm going to go for it with an open heart and an open mind. I will brave the 3 sleepless nights out. I will brave the weather- be it hot or cold. I will brave the elements. Gosh, I'm such a princess la. This camp will be a good time for me to grow up and out of my comfort zone.

Await the matured Me coming home on the 14 Dec. HAHAHAAH.

It may just be 4 days but I will miss Samuel and my friendsssssss.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
I should be a serial killer.
Or a slut slayer.

Help the world be a much better place to live in.

Family+Dear Chalet 7th and 8th.
K Box on 9th.
Y Camp from 10th to 14th.
Uni Y stuff And YMCA Volunteers Appreciation Night on 15th.
Picnic with Dear on 16th.
Lunch with Y Reading people on 17th.
FREE ON 18th.
Y Clique gathering on 19th.
Y Reading and Out with Nana on 20th. (Bye Samuel)
Work on 21st.
KTV on 22nd.
4e2 gathering 23rd.
Family christmas celebration 24th.
Christmas with Dear 25th.

And I will be free. (Besides working on weekends)
I think I need to change this habit of packing things together, thinking I really have all the time in the world. I guess its a way I make full use of my life.

How I wish we were still in Secondary School.

Then I could walk past his class frequently.
And I could have recess dates with him.
And I could see him in uniform.
And he could wait for me after school.
And he could find me easily.
And he could order flowers for me. (AHAHHA)
And we could stay back in school together.
And we could walk to the bus stop together.
And we could spend a whole lot of time together.

And when our exams end on same dates, we could go out together straight after it.

=( I missssss Samuel.

Okay, as long as I'm happy, results dont matter much. Its okay that I got B- for Mgmt Com. I still have BGS, FA and Calculus. BGS was too simple so everyone will do well, and class part. will pull me down. FA and Calculus will be flooded with my careless mistakes, so shall not hope too much. GOSH, I will be the lousiest student in SMU. SHITZ MANZZZ.