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Lets slow down
and start going backwards.

I hate fat boys who dont know how to behave themselves. They should just go get bras and stop letting the whole world know they have breasts. Heh.

So fat le still want to get KFC. Cannot take it. The stench. The face. The attitude.

Behave yourself.

I wonder what will I do today..

I went to the Bird Park with Samuel yesterday. As I am a super lazy bum who never exercises, it was tough for me to walk so much under the HOT HOT HOT HOT sun. Nonetheless, it was fun looking at birds with Samuel, the red-breasted bird. HAHA.

The penguins were the cutest, as they looked the most retarded. Flamingoes are quite cute as well. The one-leg thing is still stuck in my mind. I cant stop doing it. I did it with my cousins at the airport that day and I did it in front of Samuel yesterday.

Oh yes. We did a good deed yesterday. As I had 3 free tickets to the Bird Park, and there were only 2 of us, we decided to give the ticket away for free. Sweet eh? Indeed. =D

Actually, I wanted to sell the ticket to some gullible people, namely the **g *o-s. Ha. Better dont write it out. Dont wanna get caught to court for being racist.

We caught the All Star Bird Show. I never knew that birds could actually be THAT talented. If you go to the Bird Park, which I doubt you will, you should catch this show.

I was attacked by gastric pain and headache yesterday. How irritating.

After taking panadol, we decided to head for our favourite hangout, amk library. Samuel, being very nice, lent me his shoulder so that I could sleep in the MRT train. I took his offer and leaned on it. BUT! Before I could fall asleep, Samuel fell asleep first. He started nodding his head, like he was in deeeeeeeeeeeeep sleeeeeeep.

He asked for a 2nd chance and I took it. AGAIN! He fell asleep almost immediately. Heh. What a sleepy head.

Thats all for yesterday. I went to Chinatown with my Mum just now. She wanted to eat the yong tau fu there. But upon reaching, we found out that the shop is CLOSED. How unlucky. She ate the 2nd best yong tau fu instead. Heh. I saw the very BEAUTIFUL Nike bag at the OG there. Oh my god. It was such a beauty, smiling at me at the shelf. I am still thinking over it.......

Okay. Thats all. Just a normal blog entry today. Nothing else.

SiewTing rocked the concert yesterday. Hah. I put her as the BEST performer on the survey form. =D After the concert, I was thinking...

How nice If my boyfriend plays the piano that well. Heh. But its ok, I am very happy with mine now.

I cant really remember what else did I do yesterday.

I will be heading down to the airport later in the evening. My auntie, uncle and cousin will be going home to Norway. They'll be back maybe next year? This happens when you marry someone who lives somewhere else.

The posting results will be out soon. And school will start for me. I must study really hard when school reopens. I am looking forward to it but, at the same time, I am dreading school, without Samuel.

MY TEETH HURTS LIKE FU*K.
Pardon me, 'cause it really hurts.

Having another dental appointment later at 4.20pm. I must tolerate this nonsense, I believe I will be having my braces taken off SOON. I heard from the radio yesterday that braces are the IN thing now. Really? What a waste. Over the last few years they dont think braces are nice, and when I am going to have them taken off, people think its hip. Blah.

I will be meeting Belinda at 6pm tomorrow to go watch SIEWTING. =D I cant wait to watch the concert. I bet it'll be good, 'cause Siew Ting is in it. Heh.

I miss going out with Samuel. So many days since I last saw him. Lets see, how many days to be exact. Today is the 4th day. Ha. Seems really long to me. I cant wait to watch him have his wushu lesson later today. I will wave to him from my room and see if he can actually find me from the carpark. How entertaining indeed.

The song -Stick Wit You- is like so STUCK in my head. I will be getting the Pussycat Dolls album later. I dont care. I MUST get it. Jean doesnt even need to tempt me to buy it this time. Hehe.

I hope to get into the same school as Jean, then we can carry on our nonsense for another 2 more years. MOE, please help us.

Jean is right here beside me, staring at me while I type. How retarded. "Sorry I am staring at the computer, not you!" says Jean. Now she is really looking at me. Yes. She loves looking at me. She just admitted it. She wants me to tell the world about this.

Okay no. Jean said: "NO! NO! NO! More NO!" And she goes on laughing and combing her hair. I wonder why....

Yiling must be jealous that we are having so much fun being stupid. Let us tell you what have we been doing just now.

I met Jean at Serangoon to go to PS. We wanted to buy buttons to make earrings but we didnt in the end. We went ALL the way to PS just to eat. I had noodles while she had dessert. How dumb. But Jean likes it. So...

Jean gave a VERY "good" idea of fixing puzzles. Jean wants me to write "piecing the puzzles" but i REFUSED. Puzzles were too expensive so we ended up heading for J8.

On the way to Bishan, and I mean ALL the way to Bishan, we kept thinking of what to do at my house. We even thought of baking cookies, making salad, blah blah blah. We ended up at Popular at J8. After flipping through books there, we decided to do...........

Paper mache dolls. Sounds nice? think again.

Jean had waffle and I had mango/longan dessert. She had a lot of fun mixing flour with water. I wonder why (again). Oh yes. We played with flour after everything. Jean said: "Corn flour." So unnecessary.

So we made them. With a lot of difficulties. Jean struggled A LOT. And I mean A LOT. She kept complaining. So idiotic. Especially when she was making this -Jean- paper mache. Oh yes. She claims that the -e- and -a- in her name can form a heart. Jean is saying right now: "NO. NO. REALLY. Not claim, its TRUEEE!" yada yada.. =P

We played with flour after everything. Call us retards but we like it. Jean says " I love being a retard with vosh!" Okay. She didnt say that. HAHA.

This blog entry must be really confusing to you. Happy reading.

We read mag after that. Then I decided to switch on the com, and she came over (so kaypo indeed.) She made me blog so I had to add her into this entry. To make her happy.

Jean said "you must put -you love jean. yeah she is the best-" So she is forcing me to put this.
YOU LOVE JEAN. YEAH. SHE IS THE BEST.

Jean is very happy now. Satisfied so easily? yeah. Its a good thing though.

The end. Jean is going nuts. =D I love it.

Thanks to Jean for making me hear -Stick Wit You- last night. That made me call Samuel. Heh.

He told me another story last night. Another b-e-a-utiful story.

I've got nothing to blog about actually. I am just excited that I'm going to the Zoo tomorrow. I am still a kid, at heart.

When I am in my state of doubt and when I am feeling all unstable and insecured, you came and...

Question of the day: Do you want your partner to have a good or bad memory?

He told me a story just that day and I was all smiles.
He told me something today and I went speechless.

Maybe it is all my fault.
But I really didnt know that in the first place.

Why do some things just have to happen? Since we know that it will happen sooner or later, why do we still bother to continue doing it?

Sometimes I think everyone is stupid. We tend to do things even though we know that there wont be a good ending. Everyone is a victim of this stupidity, even yours truely.

As I once said, why cant everyone have no feelings at all? Then we'll all be at peace.

Oh well, things just happen. "Things happen for a reason" But I beg to differ. Sometimes, things happen without a reason. Excuses and lies are used as reasons.

Dont worry, I am not depressed. I am not the depressing kind. I am just voicing out the inner me.

As I was reading Audrey's blog, I realised. How many times do we say the word "IF"? We are constantly giving ourselves space for excuses, space for unwanted; unnecessary thoughts. What if I was... What if I didnt do that... What if we are still... What if...

Doesnt matter if this entry make no sense to you. Heh. Perhaps I'm just too bored.

Suddenly I feel a strong urge to tell everyone out there, NO ONE has the right to make you feel depressed. Absolutely no one should do that to you anyway.

People out there who are feeling down right now, go to the mirror and tell yourself: "I am one happy person right now. There are much more things for me to go on doing in my life. My life, my rules. Why bother being sad over YOU? I rock my own world. Kiss my as* and go to HELL, you sucker!" Smile to yourself and move on. Dress your best and go out with some close friends. Go ahead! HAVE FUN and distract yourself from the pain.

I feel helpless, cant seem to cheer anyone up. But even if I cant do anything to help, I wil be there.

Ee Chin Ann..
Dont you think it rhymes with...



It-chy Hand..

I seriously think they rhyme.

I am going to the Singapore Zoological Garden on Wednesday with Yun Ting. I am freaking excited. It has been a long time since I've been there. We have decided to visit ALL the animals there and take loads of photos. I will enjoy myself then. May it not rain on Wednesday. I cant stop thinking about it. There will be the roaring of the lions, the swimming of the polar bears, the performance of the elephants, the retarded acts of the monkeys, BUT, there will also be the smell of poo and the always-active mosquitoes. Nevertheless, I am looking forward to our date to the Zoo. =D

But currently, I am freaking bored. I have nothing to do at all. All I am doing is talking to Eric online, smsing Yunting and Samuel. Grrr..

I was making salad this morning. I washed the lettuce and tore them up, shelled the hardboiled eggs and cut them, washed the corn and dried them, dug the watermelon and made them into balls. I put them all together into a salad bowl and into the fridge it went. Now, I am waiting for it to be cold then I can add in Thousand Island and lemon juice.

Wanna try my salad? I bet it will taste damn good. I made sure I washed my hands very thoroughly before handling with the foodstuff. Oh ya. But I was having a running nose while I was mixing the salad. =D Heh.

Ok, I am freaking bored. People! I stopped work already. You guys can date me out again! Or else I will be rotting all day. I am booked on Wednesday though. =P The Zoo wants me there.

I went SHOPPING today with Samuel. =) It was very enjoyable. I laughed so hard at several occasions. As I told Samuel, my stomach muscles are tougher now. I actually laughed till my whole face was hot. =/ Felt really dumb. Today was SUPERB. Time totally well spent. =D

I bought a skirt and a bag for Samuel. Samuel bought a "wallet" and a bag for me and presents for his family. So sweet eh? This is Valentines Day to us. Happy post Valentines. Everyday is like Valentines day to me. =D

We ate at Sakae Sushi. Satisfied meal with satisfied shopping. Cant be better. I shall call Samuel the greedy pig from now on. He wanted to go on eating because "I want to try all!" He tried all weird looking ones as well. Heh.

We met Jerald and his primary school friends today.

We were so nice and went back to Taka to visit our friends. =) They were the ones who helped during the boring working days.

Thats it for today. I might be going to J8 for lunch tomorrow with my Mum and my sister. Then I will stand by my bedroom window and see Samuel do his wushu. Heh. He will be having his lessons at the carpark in front of my house from tomorrow onwards. I am so excited. I will stand by the window throughout his whole wushu lesson. I will use my telescope to get a closer look. =D I am a stalker.

Today is my last day of work. Finally. No more paid boredom. My boss let me off half an hour earlier just now. So sweet of her. Everyone else is busy packing, except me. My boss is really nice.

Time passed quite quickly today at work. Samuel brought Hekming, Kaiwen, Robin, Li Lei toTaka after their movie, so I had entertainment for a while. Thanks to all for making time pass.

Oh ya. I have a pimple on my nose and my friend asked if I just pierced my nose. How idiotic. =/

I am going shopping tomorrow again. I cant wait. Getting my new bag!! Clothes! And a good lunch. Exciting indeed.

I dont really have anything to blog about actually.

Happy Valentines Day! Couples here and there. Girls with flowers filled the place. Where is my BIGBIG bouquet of flowers? =P I will be waiting.

Actually, Vday is just a normal day but it is because of the atmosphere and stuff, everyone is extra sweet today. I gave my friends at Taka sweets. I got hugs and a kiss from my friend there. She's really nice. I even took an extra long break today. Supposed to be half an hour but I took like more than an hour. Dont tell my boss. Its Valentines day afterall. Its a vday special thing. =/

Tomorrow is my last day of work. I will miss my friend there. She is very friendly and she doesnt mind talking about anything. She's on leave tomorrow though. I have a friend called Valerie there as well. She's really pretty and nice too. I love packing the toys with her actually. These two friends make time pass really fast. I will kinda miss them.....

Oh yes. Samuel has an ADMIRER there. Just a few days of working and 1. He attracted the girl. 2. the girl falls in love with him. See how things happen so quickly nowadays. Heh. Cant help it, Samuel is just so attractive. He is taken, unfortunately for her, fortunately for me. =/

Since its valentines day, I shall be a little more mushy here. Heh.

I love Samuel. I will try my very best to maintain our relationship even if we are in different schools. You made me realised how much I can actually do for the four letter L-word. You made me know how patient I can actually be. Even if I do quarrel with you SOMETIMES, you should know that I dont mean it. Thank you for being with me. Thank you for being so sweet. Thank you for the love and the care. Thank you for the hugs and kisses. Thank you for being you. Oh yes. Thank you for doing things to make me laugh (even if its unintentional: eg. do things/two things.=P) I love you.

I love Jean. She is still very humorous to me. She is always able to create the IMPACT on our dates. I can do anything stupid in front of her as I know she doesnt mind. I can be very me with her. Thank you Jean. You are one friend I will never forget. Not only did you make an impact on our dates, you made an impact in my life too. =)

I wrote Jean and Yiling a love note on tissue today. Heh. I am nice, right?

I love Yiling too. But she is always busy with some stuff so she neglects Jean and I sometimes. =/ Yiling is nice too. She tells us her deepest secrets all the time. Trust. I am honoured to be the trusted one. Thank you Yiling for being my friend for these years. I really hope this friendship will never end.

We must go out again, the threesome (as what Jean said just now). I went for vday dinner with Jean and Yiling just now. Jean had SUPER spicy noodles. You cannot imagine how spicy it was. Not much shopping today.

After that, I went back to look for Samuel. He accompanied me home after that. That short amount of time was nice. Sugar, spice and everything nice. =)

Ok. Thats all I've got to say.

I went out with Samuel yesterday. I call it the Everything-gone-wrong date. Everything went the way none of us wanted. We went to East coast to do nothing. That was because of me. I didnt want it to happen though. =P Then we went for an early dinner as we were too hungry (Samuel claims he is maturing thats why he gets hungry so quickly.) But something went totally bizare that we had to leave for home immediately. It made me worried sick too.

I realised how worried I could be for him. Serious. This is not just to make Samuel feel touched or words to that effect. But seriously, I actually got TOO worried. Oh well.

Oh yes. I said I will write thi in my blog and so I will now. Samuel was looking at a Malay girl in a blue bikini, while she was trying to surf at the sea. I asked, in a fake jealous tone, "what are you looking at?" Samuel replied, "I am looking at her do things." (grammatically incorrect but this is just our casual conversation) Okay, guess what I heard?






"I am looking at her two things."

We laughed like sh*t at my cock ears.

I went out with Jean on Friday. Going out with her is always very enjoyable. Jean will beam with joy when she reads this. I love going out with her. Everything she said and did was funny. We can actually laugh at the dangling strings of her top. Dont bother if you dont understand. It was just funny at that moment. I bought 1 long sleeved blouse and a shirt. Jean bought a shirt. We had dinner at Long John. Come to think of it, how did we actually do so much stuff in such a short time? We are professional shoppers now. Jean! We still need to get new wallets!

I really hope to get into the same school as Jean. Cant imagine going to a new school alone, without a close friend.

I will be meeting Jean again tomorrow. How sickening. =P

I got 11. Although I may be proud of myself, I am not that happy now. My heart aches. It is not your fault. I just cannot help feeling really heart broken when you arent happy. You did your best and that is the most important thing. I am still proud of you.

I must thank Samuel for pushing me during the O levels period. He made me go the extra mile. Everytime I get lazy and want to stop studying, he will go "just half an hour more k? I am studying too." Thank you. I still love you a lot.

Congrats Yiling and Jean and Yunting. =D I am happy for all of you. Actually I am happy for you too. I hope you can be too.

You are not alone. I will be with you through everything so dont blame yourself so much. It is not crap. You are not stupid. You are the same person to me. You are making me cry.

Today is the day. Getting back of THE results. My heart is beating super fast now. I need to express myself here. I dont know if I am supposed to feel that I am going to get good results or am I going to get bad results. As I am so frustrated now, my Mum wants me to do housework. Hell with it.

How has work been so far? Not so good, not so bad. There are nice people there but it can really be very boring and very cold there. The air con is WOAH. It can leave me shivering. Thats how cold it is there. Thanks to the people who have been entertaining me by sms. It helped kill a lot of time. =D

I sent both Ting Xuan and Yi Ching off. It was sad seeing them leave. I cried when Yi Ching left. You know how hard is it to make me cry? Even when I watched I Not Stupid Too, I didnt even feel like crying. But as Yi Ching entered the departure hall, tears just came flowing down. When she turned around to wave, I couldnt control it, cried even more badly. SiewHoon was hugging me, Siew Ting was saying stuff to comfort me. Thoughts were like flashing in my mind- Yi Ching is the one who always has faith in me, Yi Ching is the one who is motivating me to go on with my dreams, Yi Ching is the one who talks nonsense online with me, Yi Ching always praises my art, Yi Ching this, Yi Ching that...I will certainly miss her. It is rare to have someone to step into your life, let alone make an impact on it. She did it. She came and she made a really strong impact on it. Yi Ching, you will never be forgotten. You made me so guilty when you said my blog was the last blog you read before leaving. I have not been blogging recently. Oh yes. Yi Ching is the one who always reads my blog. COME BACK SOOOON!! I will miss you. Ok. No crying now.

Hope my results will be fine later. And so will Samuel's, Yunting's, Jean's, Yiling's, Siew Ting's, Yi Ching's, and everyone everyone everyone else. Everything will turn out just fine. =D

The truth is the truth. A lie is a lie. There is nothing you can do to make the truth a lie, or make a lie the truth. Jean will agree. Oh no. I miss Jean so much now.

I decided to change my dental appointment. I dont want to wander around Orchard alone for the whole day. Yunting is working today, so she cannot accompany me. Jean is schooling. Yiling disappeared when I asked her if she could accompany me. Samuel is working. Oh well. My dental appointment is now on the 13th instead.

Oh yes, results out on Friday at 2.30pm. Dont forget. I am nervous excited. What if I get superb results? What if I get horrendous results? Okay, dont worry. Everything will be fine.

Ting Xuan will be leaving tomorrow. May she enjoy her time there. I hereby wish Tingxuan all the best and may she excel there. =D

I realised something recently. A lot of us change as time goes by. It is just part of life. As people grow, they see things differently, therefore changing their personalities. Some change for the better, some change for the worse. Did I change? I seriously hope not. It is not about changing your fashion sense or changing your style or changing the way you look. It is the changing of character that puts me in doubt. Are you the same person as I knew before? I guess I just have to adapt to the new you and you and you and you..............Oh well.

Today is my 2nd day of work. How was work? Not bad. Before going to work yesterday I was afraid that I would not have friends and would be damn lonely. Thank god. People there are nice and friendly. There is an indian girl with red specs and a bf from norway, and a malay girl who works on weekends only and told me a ghost story, a chinese girl who asked me not to worry for my O level results, a sweet looking girl who has the same name as me, and an auntie who taught me how to read the code on the cards. =D I've got new friends.

I sold over $100 of items today. I worked half day only. =D I love serving ang mo customers. They are really nice and there will be no communication breakdown. They are more open to suggestions. If they need help, they will ask. Not like others. They are also less demanding. Okay, maybe only the ang mos I served today are nice. Oh yes. They are very willing to spend. =D

Samuel came about 45mins earlier today. I assume its to accompany me. =)

I waited for Samuel to knock off yesterday. So I was at Taka from 10 to 9.30pm. My legs were killing me. But, being super nice, I decided to wait for Samuel since I couldnt make it to pasir ris to meet the rest. Sorry. But I only can leave Taka at 4pm and you guys were leaving at 6pm. SORRY.

Yunting came to find me today after her interview. She got the job! Congrats to her. We went to far east for shopping. She bought her clothes. I just did window shopping. I was very into long sleeves now. Maybe because I get cold very easily so long sleeves are more comfy. I saw this long sleeved blouse. It costs $42! If my results are good on Friday, I will go super shopping on Saturday.

There's dental appointment for me tomorrow at 10.45am. I need to take the afternoon shift. So idiotic. I need to wait till 330pm. What will I do at that time?

Oh no. I am going to start working tomorrow! My first job in my whole life. Jitters. Am I supposed to be excited? I feel like a Primary 1 kid now. As what a Primary 1 will say, "I have butterflies in my stomach." Its like tomorrow is the first day of school. As I just told Samuel, I am nervous excited. May everything go smoothly. I cannot be so spoilt anymore.

Sometimes I feel that I may be 17 this year, but I still feel like a kid. (yes I know I look like one)I need the support, the pampering, the protection. I am actually afraid that I will feel so lost and alone tomorrow. Does this happen to everyone? I just have to grow up soon. But, how do you know if you have already grown up?

I went to Ngee Ann Poly open house with Yunting and Samuel just now. This is one old building. Factory-HDB-Hospital look-a-like. After that we went for lunch at Marina Sq. Yunting then left for piano lessons while Samuel accompanied me to get black shoes. Audrey! I've got comfy black pumps. Heh. Pumps can be rather irritating sometimes. Blisters!

May everyone who is reading this entry wish me good luck for tomorrow. Pray for me ya? May I make new friends. =D

I am employed. I cant believe it. This is a good excuse to get new shoes as I need to wear black ones. =D

Sorry Jeanny, didnt find you today. I will find time to find you again. Yiling has been very busy recently. Out all day. Oh well. After tomorrow I will be less free already. I will miss slacking a lot.

It seems like my Mum is very happy that I will be working soon. She even bet with me this morning that I will not work. Yeah. I earned $10 from this bet. Seriously, my Mum is more excited than me.

Just heard from a dedication on the radio, "Hope XX will be my Valentine" OH GOD. my valentine and I will not be free on Valentines' Day. =( Can we postpone Valentines day?

This is a very random entry, just putting down anything that pops into my mind.

I am very bored. The only person entertaining me now is Timothy.

Why isnt Yiling at home? It is always so tough finding her.

Jean! Come back and talk to me!!

I should have believed the newspapers. I Not Stupid Too deserves the 2 stars. Not my type of movie. But it was not THAT bad, still watch-able. Seriously, it wasnt touching to me. Heh. Everything was funny, especially the public canning. I am this cruel. =D

Siewting, Yunting and I watched the 8.45pm show last night. It was late. Thank You Siewting's Dad for fetching us home after that. I reached home at 11.30pm. We ate at Sakae for dinner. No buffet but we agreed. Red plates are amazing. They had this one-for-one promotion so we could have one free red plate with every one we took. Sweet.

I am getting panicky over my results. I am really scared already. I dont want to get over 20 for my L1R5. NO NO! I am very worried now. The day is fast approaching. I want good results. Who doesnt? I am very worried for my humans and my chemistry. OH no. The more I talk about it, the more nervous I get. Jittery. AHHHhhh..