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Lets slow down
and start going backwards.

Its been a long time since I slurged on something so beautiful, its a sign.

Hello new boots! You are mine!



HAHAHAH NOOOOO. I'm not so brave. HOWWWWWWWWW.

UNFAIR!
Theres a Flea Market at Home Club tomorrow and another at Haji Lane on Sunday!
DAMN! But I cant go for BOTH! =(((((((( Yesyes, friends GO WITHOUT ME.

I've been cursed by Calculus.
And the flu bug.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Samuel's coming to make me feel better.....

At least there's Little Nonya and Ten Brothers to accompany me too. HA.

All I wanted was to get an A. HAHAHAAH!

YA right. Honestly, I think the paper is do-able. Its not very difficult, even though it has its trickiness. If I was more careful, and did the paper with my eyes more widely opened, I think I will do well. I was practically racing through the entire paper, keeping in mind that time is not enough. Yes, as usual, I finished my paper early. I think I have too good time management skills, I used to have time after Geography to check my paper.

I should not have spend the remaining time on the stupid Cash Flow cause its like 16m for just operating activities. What bullcrap, I did the entire Cash Flow statemt out. And I did it out twice. And in the end the values were still wrong. I was so determined to get it right. At the end of the paper, my friend told me, it was just operating activities that they wanted. DAMN!! In the end, I didnt even do the part on operating activities correctly. Missed out abit. ARGH!

Marks allocation is screwed for this paper. Operating activies would take about 15mins and it cost 16 marks. Other questions like doing the entire adjustment for a worksheet is only 5marks, it would properly take 35mins to do. And FIFO, LIFO and Av cost cost only 3marks. WTH. It takes rather long to calculate all 3!

So plus all my careless mistakes, being not a genius at Math, I think I will just pass. But isnt that all I wished for?

I really hope I get method marks and no error carried forward deductions. Oh GOD, let the bell curve work for me!!!!!!!! I really put in my sweat and blood for this fucking subject. Dont do this to me.

So the time has arrived. The final showdown- Me vs FA.

So its time to boose my confidence before the battle tomorrow.

I'm sure I will do well. I did my work, I revised, I wrote notes. I can write journal entries with my eyes close. No issue. I believe in accounting and so I will do well. At least I did my part already, so even if I dont do well, I will just have to accept it. I will face all the numbers and tables will all the courage I can summon.

With my intelligence and dilligence, the battle is 3/4 won. I can do it.

If I can do so well in Geography without having any prior knowledge, I'm sure I can do well in FA. I just have to keep a clear mind, dont think too much, balance the values, let my hand do all the work. Keep being positive, smile at problems faced and solve it if I can. If I cant, let go and move on. YESYESYES.

12pm tomorrow, I will be free from FA Forever. I swear I wont retake it again. CLEAR IT out of my burden list. =)

Wish me all the luck in the whole world! I CAN DO IT. I WILL DO MAGIC TOMORROW!

My hands need to do something.
My heart yearns for somthing.
My mind wants to to learn something.

I seriously dont know what. But my whole soul is tingling in anticipation. Maybe its those crazy holiday ideas I have in my puny mind. Excitement overpowered exams. Terrible shit.

Good luck to me. I want to do well in my exams but..

I really think I did enough for FA alr. If I still dont do well, I will let go. I swear to start studying Calculus tomorrow. Yes, I've not started for it at all. GOSH, what am I doing here?

I'm going to buy lots and lots and lots of shoes after my exams.
I want the rush of excitement buying more than 1 pair of shoes in a day.
I'm going to get black boots, fierce heels, cute pumps, slack loafers. I'm going to get them all!

This urge to get gazillion shoes has been supressed all Sem. Its time to let it all out. =D

Gosh, theres so much I want to buy after my exams. I must pamper myself. YES I MUST. AHHH. Why cant my exams end like by this week? Damn Calculus.

Charles and Keith having warehouse sale on 28 Nov. But its only at its headquarters, which is really far somewhere. But its up to 70% sale. ARGH. If I dont have exams, you will be sure to see me there. =/

Rah, everything is fun-er than studying at home now. Even the pasar malam downstairs is tempting.

Woah Disney is going to do Beauty and the Beast again! =)
It will be out in 2010. Something to look forward in 2 years time. GAWD, but I will be 21! Wonder if Beauty and the Beast will excite me then.

Does time change us? Or are we changing because of time?

One down, Two more to go. 1 day down, 7 more to go. >=(

How nice if all papers are like BGS.
45 mins on the paper, 1hr 15 min waiting and waiting.
I doubt FA will be like that.
But DAMN, BGS is not setting the mood right.

It was a joy doing the paper. Even though some questions were tricky and more like the test of English, it was just true and false, mcqs and 5 short written answers. I even drew out a family tree of the SMU organisation. It was embarrassing cause I didnt know how to do that qns. But I'm not worried how will I do for it, everyone was just discussing how dumb it was. HAH.

Zzzz. If I mug like in JC, I will ace. (Sabrina, sounds like you not? HHAH!)

YEAH COME ON, FA AND CALCULUS. And I'm so done.

Watched A Walk to Remember for like say, the 5th time, yesterday. And for the very first time, I cried watching it. HAHAHAHHAHAH!

Boy, this is indeed an amazing show that I can watch over and over again, but still feel sad everytime I watch it.

Another thing to do after my exams: read A Walk to Remember. I'm sure the book will be even better. =)

"Love is like the wind, you cant see it but you can feel it."

I'm sure Yiling will agree. Shes a fan too! HAH.

YEAH EXAMS BEGIN TML! I'M SUPER EEXCITED.

1. pressie making with Jean and Yiling
2. steamboating at Audrey's
3. sleepover at Audrey's
4. shopping for CNY clothes =D
5. shopping for fun
6. picnic with Samuel (HAHA, he's forced.)
7. 1-day workshops
8. army market
9. pack my wardrobe for more inputs
10. meet up with Khar and Tiying
11. y camp preparations and Y CAMP
12. coffee, icecream and cakes
13. many christmas celebrations

DAMN. I have excessive oil accumulating on my face. Resulting in excessive pimples and horrible complexion. And to top it off, OILY FRINGE.

I have droopy eyelids and lifeless eyes. I have ugly long fingernails, with chipped off pink nail polish.

I wear easy cause I have absolutely no mood to zhng. Even if I dress up, its all in neutral colours which will naturally match without putting an extra thought to it.

This is what exams can do to you. It harms you more than the so-called benefits it bring.

I'm going to do really well in FA.

=) What a high crass bazaar, I must say. I enjoyed the experience. The splash of colours, the keen and welcoming ang mo vendors, the bombardment of new DIY ideas. Seriously, I'm amazed by the amount of creativity that was oozing out of this small place.

After listening to loads of melodramatic songs, my thoughts were cleared. I felt that it was all deserve the wait. Even though I may be stupid enough to keep waiting, when I get rewarded, its worth it. Its like newton under the tree, and when the apple hit his head, everything become clear. Okay, terrible analogy.

YEAH MY EXAMS ARE COMING.

Seriously, I dont really give a damn if I win people, or if I do super well. As long as I'm happy, I'm doing well. Yup, I'm a strange kid. But I think I really feel much more at peace when I'm at peace with myself. Dont fight what your mind and body cant handle. Do my part in revision and when it comes, I will just do what I can.

Of course, I will still complain if I dont do well. HA.

Its time for a restructuring of my life. Its time for something new. I must start learning something soon. I need to reactivate my creative cells. I should do something totally unrelated to my course of study. I want to play with colours again. Now, all the colours I can play with are the colours I wear, and the colours on my notes.

What should I do?
I cannot paint shoes anymore, my shoe rack cannot sustain this hobby.
I want to paint the walls of my room. But my mum will make me pack my room before I can do that. Omg if I can paint on the floor or the ceiling even better!
I want to take up sewing, but can I not have any sewing homework?
I should take up a job after my exams, maybe as a florist or sth.

I cant wait for Y Camp actually. Even though I hate camps, I'm still looking forward for it. Something new and big in my life. I cant wait to do mini Y camps when my term starts at Uni Y.

Okay, watching the Ting Tings on Youtube makes me happy. I think its the flashy colours and the irritatingly pleasing lyrics.

I should eat until I explode. At least I will die happier. =/

Okay, I'm okay laaaa. I still studied today, had my good share of food and naps. My dinner was crazy. I had like 4 pieces of bread with campbell soup, then my main dinner- rice, meat,vege and all.

My stomach is inflated like a ball now, its soooo stretched. Maybe this is how pregnant mothers feel.

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GAWD DAMN IT.
THE CONTRUCTION DOWNSTAIRS IS KILLLLLLLLLING ME.
I CANNOT FOCUS DOING FA!
I CANNOT DO ANYTHING IN PEACE!
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. DAMN IT!

Its quite sad that my Saturday studying partner is gone. =(
Guess its tough when new friends come into the picture.

I guess when teens grow up, they come to different stages in their lives.

When they are 14, they think they are ready for love. So they start falling in love, and chasing their crushes. They think they are so matured in their thoughts and start behaving like young adults. They think they are the coolest and they know everything. Nothing else is important except friends and love. Studies can be chucked aside. Shortforms and abbreviations are exciting. Typing weirdly lIKeEe diiS is cute. No dreams, no aspirations, just be hip and look hip, even if you buy cheap stuff. The middle finger is used to express anger.

When they turn 17, they start to think about their future. They think more, feel more, do more. Time of their life when they think that they shouldnt be wasting their time. They feel that they are stressed by the cruelty of life. So they learn how to be emo, being sad at nights, listening to sad music and to indulge in it. They also start to hang out with friends at trendier places like Starbucks. They start hard, as they secretly think they should be smarter than their peers. Saying "Fuck" makes you westernised and cool.

When they turn 19, they think they are getting old. So they act young all over again. They come up with weird slangs and lingo to feel cool. They change spellings of common words. They want to be different. They want to be special and feel special so they search for an identity again. They think alot, so much that it makes them depressed at times. They dream about their future as it draws near. They dream big. They dress up as appearance is very important to them. Going out without make up is not acceptable. Showing that you have alot of social life with all the photos makes you a happening person. "Fuck" is like grammer, so use the hand sign of all fingers bent together facing upwards, instead.

Random thoughts of how life has been for me and my peers. Subjected to disagreements.

Little things that caught my mind today:

1. And old man offered his seat to another old man on the train.
2. I met my primary sch best friend and we still talked like crazy kids.
3. A tour bus driver gave way to the sbs bus driver.
4. I can be happy as long as I want to.

ZZZZZZZZZZZ. Now I know why I dont spend my weekends at home.

Staying home makes me feel drowsy and sick. My eyelids become so heavy, and I just want to sleep all day. But when I lie on my bed, I sweat like a wild boar, and get irritated by all the noises around me. So I get up and stare into space.

I dont want to study when I'm at home. I dont want to sleep. I dont want to watch tv. I dont want any shit. =/

I want to head out, enjoy the free air con at malls, lounge at cafes and talk about trash. I want to hit the shopping racks and sieve out goodies and go home with new loot. WAH! =D

I need brain management.

Project work after class today was CRAZY. I tell you, I laugh like some freak la. Finally, a real good hearty laugh. I laughed till my throat went weird and laughed until I had to force myself to stop before my stomach starts hurting. HAHA. It was DAMN DAMN funny.

"Dian xiao er! Niu er hong!" and it started, the mandarin speaking frenzy. So in the photo above, you see Carissa, whose Mandarin cannot-make-it (HAH!), Jiang Hao, who is from China and thus speaks great Mandarin and Phyo, from Myanmar who speaks damn funny Mandarin. HAHHA. He claims he learnt all of it from gu zhuang shows. So we started speaking weird Mandarin. And Phyo decided to act that hes from China too. HAH. Say 'small bird brain' in Mandarin, HAHAHA DAMN FUNNY!! OMG, its the funniest conversation we had ever. Our chinese is impeccable la.

And 'Che Dey' is love you in Burmese. 'Che' is pronounced like techno music. HAHHA.

Too bad Sabrina had to leave early.

BABABABIBOOOO.

Individual presentation isnt that scary afterall. Maybe its cause everyone is in a very light hearted mind and theres no Q & A, so everyone was just listening to all the speeches very relax-ly. And cause there are stories in everyone's speech, everyone had fun story telling and story listening. Ha.

We drew lots and I ended up being the very last speaker of the day. Boo! I was in the sianededed mood alr and everyone was in the "hurry hurry hurry, then we can all go home" mood. But I guess its okay, cause the module is OVER for me. =D Boy am I not thinking of consequences anymore.

Oh and I need to get an average of B+ to get into Mgmt 226- faciliation and counselling module. SUCKS, how am I going to get B+ for FA? Who am I to kid. But I want to take this mod!!! ZZZZ. I must mug FA soon. (like always.)

ZZZZ. I'm talking to myself again. Cause other groups are presenting and my group is presenting next week.

I SWEAR I WILL FINISH MY FA HOMEWORK TONIGHT.



If I dont, I will forget my script tml for presentation.

HAHAHHA. Serious consequences man. I better do my FA now.

Yeah! One more presentation tomorrow!!
Two more presentations next week!!
I cant wait for all my presentations to end and I can put down this bunch of rocks off my shoulders.

Then, I can prepare for my finals wholeheartedly, without a care of assignments and projects. =) Seriously, it has become a bliss to study and not "mug" for projects. I'm so excited, I'm going to float off my seat now. HAHAH.

Obama won.

That aside, I got my timetable for next Sem alr! 3 day week! Rejoice~ But I hope I will pass my interview this Friday for Mgmt226. Zzzz, if I dont pass it, then I will be taking only 4 modules, which is kinda slack. So yes, hell must I do well in the interview.

Oh and this week is project meetings galore! Tues one, Wed one, Fri another one. WHOO. And I'm sure there will one whole truck more of project meetings. I'm quite excited for next sem alr. I think I've adapted to the life of a SMU kid. I dont dread project meetings THAT much. Okay, I should thank the good grp mates I have so far. Please bless me with excellent team mates for LTB.

Okay I'm speaking a whole lot of shit to myself here, cause I got nothing to do now.

Yeah to my neck that is aching now. =/

Buttering sandwiches
Earl grey filled teapot
Scent of morning dew
Cushioned cane chairs
Floral table mat
Swaying lavenders
Fluffy clouds
Vintage dress
Half awake husband

=)

Somehow, I feel at bliss today. Woke up and sip my cranberryraspberrystrawberry tea, bidding for my nxt sem timetable.

Did abit of my project, started abit on my persuasion thing, now I'm trying to read for my FA quiz tml.

Slow and easy, just the way I like it. Of course, I could have achieved more if I worked harder. I guess I will do that erh, next weekend? Ha, doesnt really matter, cause I just want to be happy all day. =)

SMU is making me see more than competition. I dont want to live my life as if its one big competition. There's really no point competing, just do your part and be proud of it. I dont want to go on competing every single assignment, every single project, every single quiz and exam. I do what I please.

I should start loving myself MORE. Gawd, I need to pamper myself.