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I am.

Valerie
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Friday, November 26, 2010!

HandWritten on; 12:15 AM

Yup, Samuel is back. Even though its always an issue of what you cant have, you want more, what you have, you take it for granted, I'm still very happy that hes finally back. :)

But now, hes uncontactable. Either sleeping, unpacking, eating, I dont know also.

I was thinking just now that after CB paper tml, I can finally have some time for myself. I can rest and do things I want, I can enjoy and celebrate, and then, I realised. SHIT, after CB tml, camp is in 4 days. OMG. PANIC ATTACK.

I have so much to do, so much to prepare for. Am I ready? Shit, I dont feel ready, what will make me feel ready? What must I do? I have 1 million things running through my head. Ning, the mental troubleshooting is killing my energy. Its been way too long since I led a big group, since I was inspirational, since I went to camp and had such a big role. Seriously, I'm going to just suffocate and die soon.

Tomorrow after CB, I'm going to take a break and go on a date with Samuel. I'm working full day on Sunday (and my ex boss hasnt fill me on the details, very annoying). Monday morn chiong camp everything, afternoon and night celebrate Car's birthday, later night camp prep. Tues 1 full day of prep. Wed, CAMP. GEEZ.